So long babyhood

Boy oh boy, juggling two boys as a SAHM and wanting to find the time to sit here and write up blog posts is ….somethin’ else. I truly don’t know who reads them anymore – I sometimes do. And I want to keep the ol’ blog going. So this is where I’ve been lately.

I’ve been so engulfed with my thoughts and spending time with my boys because guess what? I registered bebs for kindergarten (as most may know, he’s never been in preschool or TK, he’s been home with me for almost 5 years). Unreal.

There’s a lot going on in his brain lately. Such an intelligent inquisitive kid. Mostly questions about death, and I remember when I was his age I was terrified about war, or getting hurt, or my parents dying. Bebs is in the same boat and asking me very detail oriented questions about death.

He’s asking about my father how he died. Why couldn’t the doctor’s fix him. Did I watch him die. Can he feel anything now that he has died. Those kinda questions.

Boy, I wish my Dad was still alive to meet my kids.

Kids have some complex brains man. A lot of questions that are difficult for me to answer without whippin’ the ol’ Google out. Asking questions I’ve never even thought of honestly lol.

I’m trying to be as present as possible in my boys life (not that I wasn’t already) but it’s hitting me that my older one is going to kindergarten in the fall.

It’s crazy how fast life passes by when you have children.

The questions I always have before they go to school and become naturally influenced by others:

Did I do enough?

Will he be okay?

But before you know it, the years have passed. He’s growing up fast and it truly is bittersweet. I really do mourn the toddler years already since we had so much freedom together. Me being a SAHM and him being able to galavant out to the forested adventures anytime any day.

Anyway obviously not against the kid getting an education ????. As I said, it’s a bittersweet period in our lives. For sure going to shed some tears getting him ready for kindergarten. Let’s hope he gets into the school that we really want him in! ????????

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3 ways to get your kids to look at the camera

I took for granted how easy it was to take a photo of my firstborn. All those memes online about first borns, and the children that follow are so accurate. My oldest boy is always a great listener/rule follower. Throw everything out the window when working with more than one of your children to look at the camera. Ha! I can now see why people hire photographers for capturing photos of your kids.

My chaotic ways to get my kids to look at the camera while trying to hit the shutter button as quickly as possible? 1. Bring their favourite snack and bribe them with it (LOL). 2. Bring a toy they haven’t seen in a while. 3. Tell your kids “look at the cute puppy” walking down the trail with their owner. Hey! I didn’t say these were fantastic ideas, but you gotta work with what you have, am I right? Also, when working with kids I now know to keep the timing short. They can’t handle a 30+ min photo session. Pick out your location and where you want the kids to be, and let them be…play around, and snap away.

It was a funny sight to see me trying to bribe my little guy with snacks or toys wiggling above my head as I got these shots. Most of the good ones here were because he saw a person walking their dog on the trail behind me. I love how they turned out regardless, and I love that these colours worked both with their hair colours, and the location.

Speaking of location, I’m not about to gatekeep it which so often many people do. I asked someone one time where they took their photos and they were secretive about it. So here it is, please go there, it’s absolutely beautiful and has many looped trails to walk on.

Guadalupe Oak Grove Park
5982 Thorntree Drive San Jose, CA 95002


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A minor health scare

Do I want to air out some of my laundry that’s been going on? Admittedly it’s been a wild ride these past few months. It’s taking me a while to truly digest what’s happened.

Given the nearly three years of the ongoing pandemic that many people have just seen to have forgotten about…and we’re here still wondering when this safe to go on an airplane with our boys. ANYWAY that has nothing to do with my story. I posted this also on my instagram, but decided to also post it here because – IG is not “mine” and that platform could disappear at any given moment, and my blog – well, my blog is here to stay. Clearly.

Cut to the chase: I’ve been having shortness of breath for half my life. I get it looked at when I lived in Waterloo, Ontario after playing soccer. Got an asthma inhaler to use while I was playing soccer. I used it, yes, but it didn’t really make a difference. I stopped using it.

The shortness of breath gets worse during my second pregnancy, I didn’t really notice. Months after 2nd boy was born my Mom keeps bringing it up that I should get it checked out. I do.

I head to my family doctor and he sorta brushed it off until I joked and said…”what if it’s a blood clot in my lungs or something.” He didn’t find my joke as funny as I did. He didn’t want to go “digging for something” so he suggested along with my regular blood work he’ll get my d dimer tested. The D-dimer tests for blood clotting problems. My test came back, Doc man wanted to speak with me in person. Short story, my D-Dimer was double in what it should be. He didn’t seem too concerned, so I didn’t seem too bothered by it either because sweet Jesus if you Google anything you’re dying, am I right? Bloodwork lady was surprised to see “someone as young as me” getting my D-Dimer tested. Interesting note in my head there.

My family doctor wanted t

o rule out anything scary (like a pulmonary embolism) so I was sent for a CT angiogram, the day before my birthday in May. Came back fine.  Great. All I wanted to hear. But doc says he’ll refer me to a cardiologist just in case. This cardiologist doc then has me getting all-the-things: an echocardiogram on my heart. Then a stress test where I’m hooked up to some wires, and I run on a treadmill (with my restrictive N95 mask on. Horrible feeling when running with that on), and multiple EKGs anytime I see him for an office visit. This went on for a month or two. All fine. Great.

Get my blood test done again for the d dimer. This time it’s 6 (!!!!) times higher than the regular amount your d dimer should measure. WTF is going on with my blood. Meaning I’m “high risk” for a blood clot/stroke. For some reason I’m still calm about this. He says if he can’t figure it out after some more testing he’ll refer me then to a hemoglobin specialist to figure out what’s going on with my blood that way.

I mean the doctors are doctors for a reason and THEY seem to be calm about it too. Am I being naive here? Maybe. But…I’m a pretty positive person and I’m sure I’m in the hands of down great care. Cardiologist assures me and says I’ll be fine. We always chatted about Canada, and the things we had in common. I trust him lol. Wow, I’m a great story teller. Hey, I write like I talk, what can I say.

Cut to the chase, I had a chat with my cardiologist because I didn’t want to start taking unnecessary drugs, and I was still nursing my baby. My last baby. We both agreed for my safety, I would have to take a super low dose of blood thinners, stop my birth control pills, and stop nursing my baby immediately (this was in June). I wasn’t ready to stop nursing, and was hoping to continue that journey until my little guy turned 2. But, health is a priority, am I right? I only started taking birth control pills 6 months prior because of my menstrual CLOTS. Birth control helped to stop the clots – which then turned around causing bigger clots in my blood. Doesn’t make sense to me, honestly lol. Weird.

Boom bingo bamboo….got the answer. Took the blood thinners. Stopped the pill. Do another d dimer blood test. Back to somewhat normal. All within 5wks of taking blood thinners. Wtf dude. Was it the pill the entire time? The combo? Who knows. Anyway, have another appointment in October to test to see if my D Dimer is still grand and normal reading. What a wild ride. The readability of this post is so poor, I know that. Sorry. But….there ya have it, that’s the end of my minor health scare. Bye!

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