I stopped caring about having blog posts pre-written and ready to go live so many days per week. I stopped caring so much about this website, because does it even truly matter that I update you all on the newest beauty products, or what I’m doing that day? No one on the internet really notices if I’m gone for a day or two, and I shouldn’t care either. So I stopped caring. Hense the lack of Friday and Monday updates the last few weeks. With the exception of this Friday update ;)
I’m no longer comparing myself to other bloggers. Even though it sucks, I don’t care that X company doesn’t want to work with me. When inspiration hits I’ll blog about it, even though yes I still blog Monday thru Friday. I have a lot of thoughts, okay? :) But this is supposed to be a hobby for me. It’s not my job, so why should I stress so much about people not commenting, the perfect photo to post, or publish on Instagram.
Instead I worry about not spending enough time with my little family. Spending time with my new friends, enjoying the outdoors, exploring the city, meeting new people, taking Alfie on extraordinary long walks, dipping my feet into our pool, going to the beach, bouldering again, practicing yoga, and getting more into distance running. That’s all that truly matters to me, right here, right now.
Bettering myself, and not having it to prove it to anyone.
As hippy-ish as it’s going to sound, there’s no other way to word it than I feel so at peace with everything right now. I’m relaxed, I’m enjoying life, I’m enjoying iced coffees by myself at coffee houses. I feel confident again (with a little help from eating healthy, boy my stomach looks awesome again, finally).
My blog when I lived in Ontario was my life. I think I turned into that outlet because I was lonely, and stuck in a rut. I had a few friends but I still felt alone. I do miss my co-workers and friends in Ontario terribly, but this was the change I needed. I find myself to be more at peace down here in California. I think this is whereÂ The Guy and I were meant to be.
I don’t know how this new revelation formed, but I’m definitely enjoying it.