Getting cold feet on healthy living

I’ll just jump right into it. I haven’t been eating well since coming off Paleo on May 7. To put it bluntly I have no self control and I’m back to the candy addictions and eating out. Have I not learned anything!? I am very disappointed in myself the past few weeks.

Last week I had one of the new McDonalds signature chicken wraps (the fiesta one) and I didn’t even like it!. I felt guilty eating it because I’ve been eating poorly all last week. Buying mini gummy bears at bulk barn and eating the entire bag.

I didn’t feel guilty about this meal though. My boss bought me one of my favorite McDonalds lunches. Plain cheeseburger, medium fries and a medium root beer.

I think that Paleo is a little too extreme for me, and I was feeling very apathetic. Little or no emotion. It was the strangest thing. I was definitely not myself, neither happy or sad. Just there. Let’s not talk about my toilet issues being on Paleo. My butt was not happy, let me just say that much.

However, I do want to change.

I don’t know why I’m writing this post, or what help (if any) I’m asking for. Maybe just confessing to you guys that anyone can slip up (ahem…for weeks on end). I just don’t understand why I can’t keep myself accountable for my own personal well being and overall health. I need to be accountable for my actions and have measurable goals.

I’ve already tried keeping a food log but as soon as I “cheated” (which is allowed, but not 15 days in a row!) I failed to write it down and just skipped writing every other meal there after, down.

Starting Sunday that just passed, I’ve jumped back on the healthy train and got my act together. I’ve started taking pictures of mostly everything I’ve been eating and publishing it on instagram again. So far so good.

Sunday night’s supper which I also brought to work for lunch the next day:

Monday night’s supper after a CrossFit wod:

Snacks are always the same with me. Dried unsweetened (scrumptious) mango and raw nuts with a few treats (mini M&Ms):

It’s amazing the difference you feel immediately after eating something good for you, than bad. TMI but I don’t toot as much when I eat well. Hey, it is what it is man. You come here, you get the real deal.

Perhaps seeing photos like this will keep myself motivated. It was inspiring to see me get healthy little abs on my stomach throughout paleo. I truly wanted to see what I was capable in the thirty days and I loved the results. I mean, who wouldn’t love 4.5″ gone off their waist in 30 days!? I’m still shocked that I was capable of doing that through Paleo and CrossFit/Climbing.

By the way, we still have no idea who won the Paleo 30 day Challenge at our local CrossFit box. It kept getting put off (long weekend in May, then the CrossFit Regionals) so now it’s happening this weekend. I’ll keep you posted.

Whewf. Glad I got that all off my chest.

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